Tuesday, March 24, 2015

Yves Saint Laurent Mascara!!!!

 I received the most awesome mascara from Yves Saint Laurent to try for free! I honestly didn't know what to expect, but it smelled so good (I know, weird, right... but so good!) and it gave me these little sweetheart lashes that DO NOT CLUMP up together and keeps my lashes so freakishly and wonderfully soft!!! 
 I didn't think I'd be saying this, but Vox Box may have changed my mascara life forever! Thank you, Influenster for the awesome product to try and talk about!!! I'm loving it and sharing it!


Tuesday, March 10, 2015

  Synchronicity is a word that I know very little about, but have experienced over and over in my life.  
  The other night, helping a girl into the bathroom at a bar, she suddenly looked up at me and with such meaning in suddenly clear eyes, started repeating over and over, "You are enough.... You are enough... You don't need anything or anyone else... You are enough..." 
  How does a drunken person take that? I brushed it off but it's been in the back of my mind over the last 48 hrs. I added her to my Facebook... she's gorgeous and so beautiful in spirit, which I think I had the soul-saving privilege of seeing the other night.
 There's a point when I'm working on a project... when I'm really immersed in it that I realize that I don't need anyone else. That I don't need the interaction of another person's thoughts or everything that comes with them...
  And yes, that's the colder side of me, because the other 80% loves and feels with such intensity that that is where I draw my inspiration and creativity from. I want souls... I think I freak people out when I say it, but I want souls... very few and very select, but I know who's on that list, and I am after them like there is no tomorrow. They are the ones that make my clock tick... keep me going... challenge me... put me back together... love me... and periodically, hate me... but I love them. I am willing to be destroyed for them, and for some, I have been torn apart over and over again, whether by my own demons or their betrayal.
  And then there are those that I owe my life to and that I have obliterated countless times, and for that, I am sorry. All I can do is try to make sure that I don't waste it... and I'm looking for a way not to waste anything... so overwhelming...
  I am enough... for what? Maybe that in itself has to be enough for the moment...